//Chapter 12

Posted on 12.3.10

hellos.
im HURT.
hurt in quite alot of areas.
i must be strong.
well,today was kinda bad day for me. :/
had conflicts with yao cai.
well well,i know im nosy into other people de matter.
but i felt really unfair to xin xian.
do you guys show attitude to others when others did not show?
i bet you guys won't right?
it's really very unfair.
and im invisible.
INVISIBLE.
people just can't be bothered about me.
"let them be"
since when our relaionship became only you and her?
last year ma?
do you guys know that i keep thinking that i'm the extra
and always the outcast between you guys?
is either you guys walk infront of me,
or i walk infront of you guys.
all i know was, you can't leave her and she can't leave you.
then what about me?!?
you guys just so engaged into your own conversation and just heck cared about me.
heck cared.
since when you guys will pull me into it?
get on with it man.
now isn't the end of o level whereby you guys just talk about working stuffs again.
now is not the time.
now is march le and you guys are still talking about it.
stop it can?
don't listen? how could i when you guys are speaking to each other and treat me as if im not there?
yeah,i can don't listen unless im deaf.
i really wish i was one.
me? talking about work?
yeah. i do talk about it,but it was when school reopens that time.
did i talk about it now? no.
yeah,this is what friends are for.
friends for not caring about how the others feel.
i know this happens when there are 3 people.
but since "we are friends", shouldn't we not left each other out?
when you need us, we are there for you.
but what about you?
you just pushed us away from you.
what did we do? we did nothing you know.
just for a moment, you were happy.
the other, your whole face changed.
the way you speak just reflects about it.
can't you just speak with your normal tone instead?
come on, if you are such a person,
i wouldn't have want to know you le.
but you're not!
yeah, no matter what she does, you just don't care and went away with her.
i treated you like my best friend and what did you do in return?
we no longer like the past.
your mind is always about her, her and her.
Me? haha. im just a person where you have no one, you come find me.
thanks for teaching me what friends are for.

it's really heartbreaking.

xoxo, Li En